Yes, I feel like I'm dying

This week has been miserable. I hate being sick. A few years back I contracted strep throat and also a cold virus. Cole was 4 weeks old. I remember thinking, "This is the worst sickness ever." Since that time, I've told people I felt like I was dying. I just couldn't remember exactly why I felt this way.

I remember now.

However, just like before when I had strep throat before...it wasn't JUST strep throat. I now have Tonsillitis too. If you want to know what it is, do a Google search. If you want to be grossed out, do a Google 'Image' search. It's horribly disgusting. In fact, I told the doctor I refuse to look in the back of my throat too often since it scares me too much.

So here are some side effects of strep throat and tonsillitis:

• A greater appreciation for good health
• Weight loss. I physically can't eat. It's very painful and just not worth it. And I love food.
• A fear of swallowing. I try hard to avoid it. I have to gather courage before I decide to actually swallow.
  
• A greater appreciation for a husband who's been there for me and pretty much taken care of the children by himself.
  
• Realizing I enjoy taking care of my kids and my house. It's really hard not being able to "fix" things.
• Making up my own sign language and using it on my children. It hurts to talk. My kids have never had such a quiet mom...
• Catching up on all the shows that have been saved on the DVR for the past 6 months. Casey's happy...he likes some sense of order with the DVR list, as do I. Did you happen to catch, "Twins by Surprise" on TLC?? There was a 'crazy lady' that insisted on delivering her babies by herself at home! (I love TLC and their crazy shows...)

I feel better physically, but my throat still hurts when I eat or talk. I can't wait to be back to my normal self. It's true what they say, "When mom's not happy, nobody's happy." Things are looking up though. I got showered, dressed, and put my make-up on today. I think Casey felt he was married to a cave woman all week...my hair was a mess!